Well, Sunday was difficult. I enjoyed being at church but it was hard. I feel odd being there. Not sure I will go back any time soon.
Funny story, Miranda called me the other day and asked how to hard boil eggs. It is weird because I would make them all the time for her and figured she would pick it up, but you know how teenagers are....if there is no food available, they will spend the money and go out to eat. I would have the fridge stocked and she would say there was nothing to eat....because it would take 10 minutes to cook some chicken on the stovetop?!?!?
Things have been crazy. I work way too much. I am working my entire birthday weekend. October 1, rehearsal dinner (have no idea what I am cooking for them), October 2-3 at a horse show. Kind of a bummer, but I gotta do what I gotta do.
I have a new employee, who is a very nice person. Just she has a lot of baggage and issues with her child. Weird that I hire the same type of people I date.....need work. But it was not just my decision this time. Our group is slightly off so I guess that is why we hire what we do. It will be fine but just a little more stress in my life....just what I need.
Hope y'all have had a great few days. Gotta get up early for a meeting tomorrow. I slept great Sunday night, not so great last night and am hoping tonight is going to be a prior to midnight sleep......
Still need prayers for my friends. I have not heard the status of Sue with the anyeurism, she had more surgery and as far as I know is still on a ventilator....the reason I don't know is her husband is going through his treatment....and I don't even know his condition. Prayers, prayers, prayers.
Thank you!!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
California There I went
So my beautiful daugher is in her sophomore year at Humboldt State (don't even ask me how she decided to go to Hills and Stairs University in the middle of Pot country....as even people out here know it). She is so happy out there and has awesome friends. It was so great meeting them and knowing how much they care about her.
My daughter ROCKS by the way. She is who she is, and finally realizes the values in life.
My trip out there was so inspiring. Driving through the Redwood Forests (national parks, etc) while listening to Christian music was so awesome. I happened upon the music while driving the 101 from San Franciso and listening to music about GOD and what HE does for us while driving through this amazing beauty I was in tears.
Many of you who know me I am more "spirtual" than "religious", but my commitment to GOD and Jesus is 2nd to none. I was not brought up with religion because my parents could not "handle" bringing 4 children to church. I was not baptised until I was 25 when I baptised my daughter. It was such a humbling experience for me. I was very sick as a baby (most people would baptise their "sick" children but not my mom). I got baptised when I chose to baptise Miranda. It was just me, Miranda, Mom and Dad. There was a snow storm that day and I was not postponing it because my other family members could not make it. It was one of the most inspiring days of my life.
I do not attend church regularly since my daughter "grew up" and the reason is that it is so overpowering for me. I cry in church every time I am there. It does not matter what the sermon is. I feel so blessed to be in GOD's presence. I realize I am in GOD's presence all the time. I do not need to go to church to feel it. It is very embarrasing to be in church and crying the entire time from gratefulness. So AWKWARD. Christmas is the worst for me, as well as Easter. I think I don't deserve to be there, and that Jesus and GOD will not really forgive me of my sins as is granted to me every Sunday I attend.
I think I will attend this Sunday. I will be forgiven my sins whether I deserve it or not which is so liberating (even though I don't think I deserve it). I also feel out of place like people are looking at me like I should not be there....probably my own parnoia. I will be there on Sunday praying for my friends who are having difficulties, but also realizing that every issue is a lesson to be learned and to be taught to others.
Praise be to GOD.
My daughter ROCKS by the way. She is who she is, and finally realizes the values in life.
My trip out there was so inspiring. Driving through the Redwood Forests (national parks, etc) while listening to Christian music was so awesome. I happened upon the music while driving the 101 from San Franciso and listening to music about GOD and what HE does for us while driving through this amazing beauty I was in tears.
Many of you who know me I am more "spirtual" than "religious", but my commitment to GOD and Jesus is 2nd to none. I was not brought up with religion because my parents could not "handle" bringing 4 children to church. I was not baptised until I was 25 when I baptised my daughter. It was such a humbling experience for me. I was very sick as a baby (most people would baptise their "sick" children but not my mom). I got baptised when I chose to baptise Miranda. It was just me, Miranda, Mom and Dad. There was a snow storm that day and I was not postponing it because my other family members could not make it. It was one of the most inspiring days of my life.
I do not attend church regularly since my daughter "grew up" and the reason is that it is so overpowering for me. I cry in church every time I am there. It does not matter what the sermon is. I feel so blessed to be in GOD's presence. I realize I am in GOD's presence all the time. I do not need to go to church to feel it. It is very embarrasing to be in church and crying the entire time from gratefulness. So AWKWARD. Christmas is the worst for me, as well as Easter. I think I don't deserve to be there, and that Jesus and GOD will not really forgive me of my sins as is granted to me every Sunday I attend.
I think I will attend this Sunday. I will be forgiven my sins whether I deserve it or not which is so liberating (even though I don't think I deserve it). I also feel out of place like people are looking at me like I should not be there....probably my own parnoia. I will be there on Sunday praying for my friends who are having difficulties, but also realizing that every issue is a lesson to be learned and to be taught to others.
Praise be to GOD.
Prayers for Ronnie, Jax and Paul.
My phenominal friends Anne and her husband Frank are the best people on the planet. I wish I had their faith and perseverance.
Their first son has Spina Bifida. Their 2nd son is "normal". and their 3rd son has Spina bifida with brain damage. The so smart doctors told them to abort (their 1st and 3rd). And that was at a Catholic hospital. What the heck. Most parents would have.....but what is perfect....who is the "human" who decides. And how dare they try to push a parent into eliminating their child. Why not leave it to GOD's hands. There are lessons in everything we experience. If you have your child for 1 day or 60 years, does it lessen the pain of loss? These 2 people are my inspiration in life. I am so supportive of them and would never say a bad word about their commitment to their children. How dare a doctor would suggest because a child is not "perfect" they should not have it. Okay, so blue eyes are what everyone strives for all other children should not be born?? Okay, I am being over dramatic. But you get my point, I hope. Prayers are just needed and I hope someone sees my blog and throws them out there with me.
My phenominal friends Anne and her husband Frank are the best people on the planet. I wish I had their faith and perseverance.
Their first son has Spina Bifida. Their 2nd son is "normal". and their 3rd son has Spina bifida with brain damage. The so smart doctors told them to abort (their 1st and 3rd). And that was at a Catholic hospital. What the heck. Most parents would have.....but what is perfect....who is the "human" who decides. And how dare they try to push a parent into eliminating their child. Why not leave it to GOD's hands. There are lessons in everything we experience. If you have your child for 1 day or 60 years, does it lessen the pain of loss? These 2 people are my inspiration in life. I am so supportive of them and would never say a bad word about their commitment to their children. How dare a doctor would suggest because a child is not "perfect" they should not have it. Okay, so blue eyes are what everyone strives for all other children should not be born?? Okay, I am being over dramatic. But you get my point, I hope. Prayers are just needed and I hope someone sees my blog and throws them out there with me.
Prayers please for some friends. One friend had an aneurism....she is still on a ventilator and I believe she has some serious brain damage and they need to go in to do more surgery on her brain.
Her husband has lymphoma....he is going through a stem cell transplant right now. I cannot imagine how low his psychi is right now never mind his body getting ready for it.
On top of that, my friends brother had a serious motorcyle accident and he is brain damaged, and his wife has hope because he squeezed her hand....although it was probably just a reflex. The testing results in his being non-responsive (ie.. vegetable).
It has really been a rough few weeks. Please send out prayers to Sue and Ben. They really need them.
Also, another friend found out his father has leukemia. When it rain is pours.
Her husband has lymphoma....he is going through a stem cell transplant right now. I cannot imagine how low his psychi is right now never mind his body getting ready for it.
On top of that, my friends brother had a serious motorcyle accident and he is brain damaged, and his wife has hope because he squeezed her hand....although it was probably just a reflex. The testing results in his being non-responsive (ie.. vegetable).
It has really been a rough few weeks. Please send out prayers to Sue and Ben. They really need them.
Also, another friend found out his father has leukemia. When it rain is pours.
Okay, so I deleted my previous posts. The reason is Barry is going down with his "friends". I also don't want people to think that I am heartless. I am the most compassionate person you would want to meet. I have a really hard exterior but man I see people in need and my heart melts. Stupid self preservation reflex.
I am probably on the SS list by now but oh well.
I am probably on the SS list by now but oh well.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)